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Thank You Mr.Raju for Saving My Life!

June 17, 2009

January 7th, 2009. A day which will live in infamy for the startling and shocking confessions of Mr.Raju. It blew one of the most profitable firms in India (atleast the figures said so) into pieces and thousands of skeletons were excavated from the closet by the media with great fervour. The columns in newspapers ran for several weeks, possibly the biggest hit of the year with the hype/collections only surpassed by those of a blockbuster telugu movie, “Arundhati” which was released earlier this year.

Six months later as I look back and connect the dots which at point of time looked like boulders in Hyderabad, I realise what Mr.Raju had done might have ruined the future and career prospects of thousands of employees and their families, but personally I think……I am convinced he saved my life from chaos and restlessness. And for that, I can’t stop thanking Mr.Raju for what he has done. You are my messiah this year!..:D
Now don’t get me wrong here. I don’t claim that Mr.Raju has helped me in any manner directly but what his confession has resulted in is much more than I could have asked for. On 11th June 2009 when the news broke out about VPP (Virtual Pool Program), thousands of associates and everyone else started analysing the pros and cons. On the surface, there are too many cons which outnumber the pros. But a careful observation will throw some light on the most important aspect which quite a few among us (especifically myself) have been craving for..perhaps for months. Freedom!
I don’t have the right to blame the firm for the consequences, it did what it should/could. The question is what are we…or rather what am I going to do now? A little while ago, I read the VPP policy and I stopped at a line which said, ” The objective of VPP is to recognize the needs of the associates to take time off regular work….focus on contribution to the society…associates are encouraged to utilize this time to meet their personal aspirations and career objectives.” It’s almost like someone has been reading my mind. On a different note, I think I have been following these very principles and objectives of VPP for the past few months. This official “liberation” does come as a rude shock for many, but for me it’s the best thing I could ask for at this point of time.
Just a week ago, the moral dilemma and the subsequent tussle between my parents and me got resolved and after 2 years of pestering and cajoling, they have finally relented to my future ambitions. This definitely was the high point of the year especially when it comes with a tag that ROI on my ambitions and a career later is not guaranteed. Overnight, my plans had changed. Now I dream of studying Journalism and Film Studies somewhere in Europe/US. Now I dream of sitting along with some of the best movie critics in the world and get down to some serious analysis and interpretation. But then, it’s still a dream.
It’s a bad bad world out there, where your ambitions and goals are governed by various factors apart from your belief and faith. And only a handful of people will walk the line, the others… hmmm…There are two important lessons which I have learnt over the course of these last 2 years.
1. Don’t spend beyond what you need . (I live with 50% of my salary every month)
2. You shouldn’t stop doing what you love to do. (I still watch every other movie in town and try writing/blogging as much as I can).
Of course, our lives are governed by different set of rules but we all have one thing in common, to keep walking and hope that tomorrow will be a better day. A famous adage quotes, “An idle brain is a devil’s workshop”. If there’s even an iota of truth in that statement, then I have been a devil for a long time now. Maybe it’s for my own good, I have understood life better and more importantly there’s always something happening. And movies certainly have played a major role in this process. As I keep myself engrossed in endless possibilities depicted in movies, it reminds me that somewhere life’s different. People are different. Your job right now is to learn about these people, who knows maybe you will meet atleast some of them in the course of your life. And that day you will know what a great influence they have been throughout your life.
So what are my immediate plans? I think I will end up doing lots of things and hopefully will accomplish atleast some of them by the end of this year (more on this in the coming few days/months). I can’t stop thanking Mr.Raju for what he has done to me. He had ignited a spark on Jan 7th and now it’s driving me crazy. I think probably all the time and end up writing atleast some of those thoughts. Out of nowhere the will to do something creative is back. And I hope it’s back for good.
Two days from now, I will be standing outside the gates of “Mordor” and look forward to walking back to my “Shire”. And along with me are a bunch of great people who dream of doing something, something different, something which they have always wanted to do. I can’t look into their eyes and find solace, because I know that it’s a tormented soul beneath that smile which covers their face. Yet for some reason I know and wish that they are part of something exciting, prosperous, adventurous. It’s a struggle which has been going on forever, but right now it has become our way of life. I raise a toast to all the wonderful people I have met here in this firm. I raise a toast to Mr.Raju for his gratuity and a great help. I raise a toast to the life ahead and the million different possibilities it has.
We march ahead into a new world. Nothing is going to change around us, but it won’t take long for you to realise that you have changed. As the Sun goes down, I look at the horizon and dream…What lies ahead? I think of Mr.Raju. I think of promises kept and broken. I think of what life has in store for us. I think of dreams.Visions. Future. Destiny. I think of life.
25 Comments leave one →
  1. June 17, 2009 5:24 pm

    Best of luck dude!!

    • Hemanth permalink*
      June 17, 2009 5:48 pm

      @ Goyal: thanks dude…:)

  2. Srikanth V permalink
    June 17, 2009 5:40 pm

    1) A very interesting post, I can find a lot of optimism in your writing.

    2) And this line “The columns in newspapers ran for several weeks, possibly the biggest hit of the year with the hype/collections only surpassed by those of a blockbuster telugu movie, ”Arundhati” which was released earlier this year.” Hehe, shows you are a more of movie buff. Was it deliberate ?

    3) Finally, a post non-movie stuff. 😀

    • Hemanth permalink*
      June 17, 2009 5:50 pm

      @Srikanth: 1) Thanks man.
      2) well both the stories happened almost in the 2nd-4th week of January. both of them dominated the news in their segment.
      3) Hehehe…yeah, finally. Perhaps next month you will find quite a few posts on Travelling as well..:)

  3. RajGopal permalink
    June 17, 2009 7:13 pm

    Today you people are no longer maggots. Today you are Marines. You’re part of a brotherhood…

    Thanks to Stanley Kubrick, I cant put it better than this

    • Hemanth permalink*
      June 17, 2009 8:42 pm

      @RajGopal: Dei…people might take that in a different sense here…hehehe…but yeah, if it’s only for me..nothing better than that!..:)

      isn’t that comment from Kubrick’s “Full Metal Jacket”??

      • June 17, 2009 10:27 pm

        you got it right.. Full Metal Jacket

        No exaggerations, you are moving on a path less taken defying the idiotic norms. Whatever might be the outcome, you are already on the winning side.
        Thats what I meant in the words of Sergeant Hartman.

  4. June 17, 2009 7:54 pm

    innocent enthusiasm, determined ambition and the glimmer of hope in your post!

    All the very best to you. Someday, I hope to see your review in NYT, or maybe a journal of your own!

    • Hemanth permalink*
      June 17, 2009 8:44 pm

      @sandeep: NYT is too much to ask for dude!!..:) Have to get to the next level first…:D

  5. June 17, 2009 10:16 pm

    Well!Well! We did talk about this 🙂 and Yes I guessed you’d he happy with this freedom.
    So.I guess this calls for what you need/wish/love.
    Next is What! 🙂

    P.S: That isn’t a question.

    • Hemanth permalink*
      June 18, 2009 4:10 pm

      @ Rajeev: It certainly isn’t “Samsung”. Joke!..:P

      Lets see, there’s still time ahead for me..:)

  6. Karthik permalink
    June 18, 2009 8:54 am

    All the best Hemantho.. Will look forward to reading your take on the latest and the greatest movies 🙂

    • Hemanth permalink*
      June 18, 2009 8:57 am

      @Karthik: Thanks man!…Oh, yeah!! You can bet on that one…we need to talk about that…planning to start a movie website…sometime soon…:)

  7. Yadhukishore.N permalink
    June 18, 2009 2:28 pm

    Awesome write-up. Best wishes for an engaging career ahead !!!

    • Hemanth permalink*
      June 18, 2009 4:11 pm

      @Yadhu: Thanks dude!..:)

  8. June 18, 2009 7:39 pm

    All the best for your future plans dude 🙂

    • Hemanth permalink*
      June 19, 2009 11:02 am

      @Hari: Thanks da..:)

  9. June 18, 2009 8:25 pm

    I see a maturity and grasp in your article now that I missed during your initial days in BITS. You have come a long way and I enjoyed reading this particular post. All the best 🙂

    • Hemanth permalink*
      June 19, 2009 11:03 am

      @Pooja: Wow! That’s a wonderful compliment…:) You are right, I did struggle a lot to write articles back in college…maybe things have changed now..for good!..:) Keep reading. And thanks a lot!..:)

  10. June 20, 2009 11:36 pm

    Hemanth .. well these are the same feelings of mine (well u know to the fact that i am too satyamite )feelings , well the words may be different but the epitome will be the same

    And dude all the best well we may meet some time in our dream industry….for making a difference

  11. onefilmbuff permalink
    June 22, 2009 1:28 pm

    Hey Hemanth,
    I am back, and Congrats. Taking a decision and getting approval from u r parents is a bold step, if you are okay with it then I would like to know how your parents reacted when you first told them about your career aspirations. No disrespect to Film Critics but to be honest dont you think making a film is more creative than analysing and writing about it ?? both have their own importance but shouldn’t you be more aspired?? i am just trying to put my perspective no fun or disrespect intended. Infact i just wish to have enough balls like you to share my aspirations with my parents or on the web, i could only say it to one person so far. May be 2 years from now, i might be able to put it before people who matter to me, till then its the same rotten monotonous life.So i am Some what like the Jack(Edward Norton’s charecter) of the “Fight Club” without the Violent thoughts of Tylor Durden(Brad Pitt). I haven’t dared to watch any of the new telugu movies after the horrors of “Ride”. Saw X-Men Origins yesterday, was nothing special the regular X-Men movie with more of Hugh Jackman and few new Mutents. But i am sure it will have good collections at BO. I thought Ryan Reynolds was wasted in the movie. About Zhang’s movies I saw HERO when i was 20 and didnt understand at all. But when i saw it last year it blew me off. Watch that channel, its great channel for movie fans. Nice to see something good coming out of Raju’s episode, i am sure there are quite a few who would thank Raju. This reminds me of a scene from the movie Water World. When Kevin Coastner throws a Lit up match into Fuel Tank of the Villains ship, the old man peddling on a small boat inside that tank for years, instead of being afraid of the flame thats about blow up the tank and him as well, says “THANK YOU”. Lot of us are waiting for that Lit up match i guess, just feel free from our cages…..

    • onefilmbuff permalink
      June 22, 2009 1:36 pm

      Correction in the last sentence….

      Lot of us are waiting for that Lit up match i guess, just to feel free from our cages…..

    • Hemanth permalink*
      June 23, 2009 10:54 am

      @Onefilmbuff: Thanks! Well, the reaction was as expected. They came to a conclusion that I had gone mad. But then, I kept on repeating the same thing for almost 2 years and somehow they relented…am sure it was a hard decision to make for them. Think about all those questions from friends, relatives and strangers about why I should be allowed to do something which isn’t as highly respected as things like Engineering/MBA?…Phew!

      Yeah, even I saw…”Wolverine”. There was nothing in the movie…no story and everyone takes themselves too’s like some CGPorn! Atleast the first 2 movies had some interesting things about them….


  12. Preetam permalink
    June 17, 2010 1:07 pm

    Nice blog post dude. Even when reading it a year after it was posted. It talks about a lot of feelings and thoughts that had gone through my own head when I too decided to turn my life around. Or rather…..took the red pill and tumbled down the rabbit hole.


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